The last two weeks have been so very, very exciting. I woke up in the morning a few Thursdays ago and found myself unable to look from left to right or up and down without some extreme pain through my neck and shoulder area. The stiffness of my neck and shoulder was nothing new since I have been dealing with a bum shoulder-blade for the last few years. The pain was entirely new.
Sitting, standing, laying down, it didn’t matter to this brand new stabbing sensation. I finally buckled down and went to visit the chiropractor. I would have gone to a normal doctor at first but I can’t really bring myself to go to the hospitals around my town. I had work to do after all.
So I get in and to my delight the chiropractor was a young practitioner. I did not catch when he graduated from his schooling but I thought it might have been 2010. In either case the years upon years of dealing with assholes like me had not taken its toll on the young doctor and his assistant and they helped out with information, describing to me what was wrong with my shoulder, and even started cracking and popping things back into place.
It turned out that a vertebra or something in my spine that should have been horizontal was more along the lines of diagonal and it was pinching nerves in my shoulder and neck area. It took three visits but the discomfort level every time I left was significantly lowered.
While they don’t have my facebook or any of my blog information I still want to give a shout-out to Dr. Trevor Tennant and Abigail Rose. I don’t put my faith in too many doctors of any sort with my past experiences but you guys are the best.
Three more months. Three more months until I can finally get this camel off my back known as “college”. Thee years and nine months so far of having absolutely no breaks from it since I am a working adult and going to traditional college classes would be a near impossibility. Nearly every week since 2010 I have had to write at least two or three pages on a certain topic and that doesn’t even touch the amount of “discussion” forum posts I’ve had to make.
I am ready for it all to be done. The problem is I will be receiving a bachelor’s degree in psychology and criminal justice. In retrospect I feel those are two solid choices that could open a few doors but at the same time I don’t really live in “Crazytown”, U.S.A or “Everyone’sanevilmastermindtown”, U.S.A either.
I have to hand it to those who are out there working full time and going to college full time. Even though I am doing the same thing I feel other people do much more with their lives even when they have a full plate. Most of the time I feel like I am just lazy. I don’t really socialize and I spend most of my time at home thinking about homework or my next book. Despite graduating in three months I still don’t feel like I have accomplished anything.
I know that can’t be true.
I think my biggest fear is that I will graduate but still have nothing to show for it. The school I am attending just settled a seven million dollar lawsuit and the truth is I cannot even find information as to why they had to settle. That makes me feel unsure about my future. If I threw away four years of my life for something that will end up being worthless then I have no clue where I’m going to go from there.